I’m tired of blogging…
One reason for this blog is to be honest and spontaneous; to be open and heart-felt. So, today I’m just going to say it: I’m getting really tired of blogging. Not even just blogging every day, but just blogging in general.
There are some really good things I can learn from this process, that is for sure, and I’ve grown so much from this blogging for a year challenge, but in the end, I find myself very empty from the blogging process.
Last week, I pre-blogged for the whole week and didn’t touch a computer for 7 days.In those 7 days I wrote far more than I had in quite some time, and gained so much insight into myself. There were no deadlines and no audience: it was just me and my thoughts. There is just something beautiful about that, something amazing about just escaping the gaze of everyone and learning about oneself. That is not something that can happen here. Here I am public with whatever I say, and I required (as far as my blog every day for a year challenge goes) to write something every day. Sometimes, this feels like a prison, and I just want the year to be over so desperately.
But I told myself that I’d blog every week day for an entire year, and I will stick to that. It might night inspire me every day, and it might not heighten my emotions all the time, but writing isn’t supposed to be about that. Writing it about writing; its about getting words out, the good, the bad, and the ugly. So I will keep writing even when I don’t want to. I will keep blogging even when I’m tired of it.