Observe : Capture : Release
A question can be beautiful thing. In one sentence we can be challenged in ways that whole speeches could never challenge us. With one thought our whole world could be flipped upside down. Maybe that’s why Jesus asked so many questions, to turn hearts and lives completely around. The more questions we ask, the more we find ourselves seeing the world in differing perspectives. The more thoughts we think, the more we excavate dreams and passions that have long been forgotten.
This morning I had one of these inspiring moments with a question I posed. The question was this: “If you could do anything for the rest of your life, money being no object, what would it be?” I had been meaning to ask this question for a long time because I desperately wanted to share my answer. As my girlfriend thought through her answer I revisited mine.
In my memory I was drawn back to May 6th, 2008 where I wrote in my journal:
“What would life look like if I were paid to walk around like this and think? Paid to duck and hide beneath the trees – chameleonizing myself – as the lady walks by with her dog and a million people shoot across the highway? Would I grow weary? Would I grow tired of these pristine moments where the cars seem to stick out their hands and push the wonderful wind across my face? If I were paid to write would it be the same as just writing? Maybe I do my best work when I duck beneath the fir tree and on one is watching.”
This moment has always been very fond to me because it reminds my of my deepest passion: To observe the world that I might write it down.
As I thought back on this I remembered nights where I’d walk around campus and avoid being seen at all cost. When a car drove around the corner I’d dive into the grass or hide behind a tree. In those moments I’d call myself a ‘chameleon’ because I didn’t want to disturb the world I was observing. I stood before the world like a man stands before a lake never touching the smooth, glass like, surface as to keep the waters from being disturbed. If I could I would have myself disappear completely that I might gain every perspective without hindering the world from taking its course.
This has been my passion for such a long time: observing, capturing, and releasing. Not for the sake of writing alone, but so that when things were written down they might be told well. That they might be preserved and remembered. In many ways I want to be ‘The Giver’ returning memories to a society that has forgotten what it means to remember. More than that, though, I want to capture the memories before they become memories. I want to experience moments as they are happening, and then share their memory. I want to view the world in every possible perspective that I might share the beauty of those perspectives with others. Like a child chasing fireflies, catching them, putting them in a jar, showing them to all his friends, and then releasing them for another to capture.
I want to discover the words that make up this life and I want to write them down. I want to live in poetic verse that inspires as many as possible. There is not a moment that I want to miss because a moment missed is a moment we can no longer share.